Philosophy of IFs

If God tells me:
-I could relive one moment with u, I would choose to be cuddled tightly in your warm and loving arms (cause I can never forget how good it felt)
-He could take away one hurtful thing you did to me, I would choose the day you decided to 'bitch' about me openly (cause it really broke my heart)
-He could take away all my sorrows about this incident, but with it goes all the memories about you as well, I would say NO
-He could turn back the time and let me choose again, I will make the same choice
-He could bring you back to me right now, then I guess....my answer might not be YES

Some Interesting Facts About Homo Sapiens

Lately I've been continuously impressed by the many facets of human personality. One of the many interesting facts that I learn includes how our behaviors are sometimes contradictory to who we actually are. For example, if I am a person with low self-esteem, I will usually appear proud and boastful just to feed my frail self-esteem. The sad part about this is that sometimes we don't do it on purpose. We somehow believe that we are confident and deserve to be confident. We don't know who we actually are...due to certain defense mechanism that decide to block everything up in order for us to continue striving in this demanding world. I wouldn't call this a bad thing but rather, a fascinating ideology.

Lately, I have been going through certain ups and downs in life that taught me a lot of life's valuable lessons. Although some of the experience are not something I would choose to go through, I am still grateful for the lessons learned.
However, I suddenly realize that no matter how much I learn, it is never adequate. What I mean is that whenever I think I have learned enough about a certain issue, I realize I am far from enlightenment. Guess that's how the phrase, 'learn till you die' come from. It also helps me realize that we can never lear everything in life....Just learn whatever we can and be sure to apply it :)

Cheers

The Lovely Garden

After a long hiatus, I think it is time for me to scribble something unto this lovely website of mine. After all, it is a place for me to rant and share bad/good experiences.

First, I am glad to be welcomed back here in Malaysia by a group of loving friends. Though I have spent 4 months away from them, 'The Garden' still has a place for me :)

Let me introduce you to my lovely friends that together made up 'The Garden'

We have
1) owner of the garden : Valerie Chua
2) The flower growing in the garden : Leow Jia Min
3) The grass that bring peace and serenity to the garden : Hillary Chew
4) The little butterfly flying around beautifying the garden : Evie Chua
5) The cute little bee buzzing around the garden : Ng Zi Yen

And of cause, last but not least ME (the colorful rainbow that shines the garden day and night and make the whole garden colorful..hehe)

There might be some arguments here and there between us at times (I guess) but all in all....we still make a great 'garden'...

Thank you girls for being part of my life

Happy Birthday Xiao Chao

Today is 'little grass's' birthday..
Happy birthday little grass...

So sad cant celebrate with you cause I am so far away...Wish you had a good time...and enjoy yourself to the fullest ya...I miss you

And also I would like to wish Yen a happy belated birthday :)
I cant join Yen's birthday celebration too :(

Well, guess what?
I am gonna miss both my BF's birthday who happen to fall on the same day......
Hmmmmmmmmmm...Hmmmmmmmmm

Happy Birthday Xiao Chao

Today is 'little grass's' birthday..
Happy birthday little grass...

So sad cant celebrate with you cause I am so far away...Wish you had a good time...and enjoy yourself to the fullest ya...I miss you

And also I would like to wish Yen a happy belated birthday :)
I cant join Yen's birthday celebration too :(

Well, guess what?
I am gonna miss both my BF's birthday who happen to fall on the same day......
Hmmmmmmmmmm...Hmmmmmmmmm

Lake Powell here I come

I have been trying to upload pictures of me here but still cant...Nevermind, will try a different method.
Anyway, next Tuesday and Wednesday, I will be going to Lake Powell, America's second biggest man-made lake I heard...its really cool and I might be doing jet ski...

It's time to dig out the bikini I bought there and sun bath.... :)

My Life in The States

Today I went to an animal sanctuary and voluntered myself together with some colleagues to cater for the cats and dogs in that sanctuary. Although we did not manage to do much, it is still an experience :)

My life so far has been adventurous and fun-filled. Went on a bike ride cruising along the national park witha colleague who is nice enough to give me that ride.
Will soon be four-wheeling off a dirt road and I heard it is loads of fun.

The places I have been so far is quite numerous and I am making the most out of my brief stay here in the states.

God has been blessing me continuously but I have not been very devoted to Him. This saddens me and I am trying to be more devoted. Please pray for me fellow Christian friends.

Despite all that, I still miss all my friends back here in Malaysia.
How is everyone?
Any updates about interesting things that happened in my absence?
I really want to know about the stuff that have been happening to all my friends so do update me if possible ya?
I love you guys

Ice cream Frenzy

Today, I had a chocolate chip mint cone ice-cream, a banana spilt and also a vanila cum corn flake ice cream. Thus, in total I consumed 5 scoops of ice-cream....I feel so guilty after that...my goodness..I will definitely gain weight ... :)

Updates about me in US

Well,it has been a while since I last updated my blog. There are so many interesting and meaningful experiences that I should blog down instantaneously but I failed to do so. I tried uploading my pictures here but somehow I cant manage to do so.

Anyway,
I have done tonnes of hiking since I have been here.
Went to Zion National Park in Utah, US twice and had loads of fun there.
Going to Bryce Canyon and Antelope Canyon soon.

Will try my best to upload pictures ASAP.

Life here is exciting and nice (and of cause busy as usual)

Hiking down to Roaring Spring

Today I went on a long hike to Roaring Spring.It was 3000feet down and 3000 feet up the North Kaibab trail that connects the North Rim (top) to the Colorado river(bottom) of the Grand Canyon. The actual hike down to the Colorado river is 8300feet so I just went barely less than half way down :)

It was fun and I really had a tough time hiking up those steep rocky mountains. The bad part was I got sunburned and I look so dark now. Hope it doesn't last long.

Roommates

After a week, my roommates FINALLY arrived.
I am so excited to have roommates but at the same time felt a bit anxious too.
I guess it's the thought of living together with strangers that is kind of putting me off.

However, I met them after work and as usual, introduced myself to them and spark continuous ongoing conversations with them (that is just 'Grace'). They are nice people and I hope we will get along well.

That's all the updates for now. Stay tuned for now.

Happy Mother's day my dear MUMMY and all the mothers in the world.
I love you mum

Random Update

Wanted to show you guys some awesome picture I took at the Grand Canyon but the file size is too big and I don't knwo how to resize it at the moment. Guess we'll just have to wait.

Anyway, I am having a really tiring but exciting time and I am enjoying myself here:)

The first day at Grand Canyon

Hie everyone,

Here I am at North Rim Grand Canyon Arizona, supposed to be happily snuggling in my bed at 2.20AM in the morning.

However, I couldn't sleep. I think I am having jetlag. Or maybe, I have not gotten accustomed to being all alone in a foreign country. It could be a combination of both actually.

Allright,let's update everyone about my life in Arizona thus far.
After being picked up by a kind employee Karen,we headed to the Social Security Office to get my Social Security Card (a card to enable me to began working in the States). To my horror, the officer said he can't start verifying my working status and issue me a card until 10 days after my arrival into the States (apparently, the new law states that any foreign citizen who wish to work here needs to wait for 10 days after arrival into the States). Karen made a call back to the resort where I am supposed to work and my General Manager Daisy said that they might have to send me back if things don't work out. However, Daisy checked with the capital office and apparently they had the same problem with some international students last year as well. So they insisted on getting me apply the Social Security Card even before the 10 days. The officer gave me a resit of application but said things are looking bad as the systems seems to suggest I could not be verified unless my sponsor here in the States, GeoVision activate certain thing (I am aware that I need to contact GeoVision upon arrival but was hoping to get a calling card to contact them prior to leaving for Grand Canyon). I told Karen about this and she said I can contact GeoVision upon arrival into the Grand Canyon and that everything will be fine.

We were supposed to head up to the Grand Canyon alone (just the two of us) but Karen got a call from the HR requesting her to fetch two other guys. There are some troubles locating one of them and we end up an hour behind schedule. When I get to the Canyons, it is too late to contact GeoVision. Karen said I can do it tomorrow morning and assured me everything will be fine but I am still a little worried.

As I was filling in my forms to be an employee, I was assisted by a sweet HR assistant manager. However, there are so many queries of mine that she can't answer (I think she is fairly new). And I end up having my paper half filled. All these added to my discomfort. Everyone else (other HR personnel) is so busy helping other employees check in no one is available to help me out and there seems to be hiccups all over (I heard it's really messy with the lack of stuff as this is the pre-operating period).

Then I was told by her that I was the first official international student to arrive this year (there is one girl but she was here last year so she had no trouble with the social security card and filling in the official forms as her details are already with them). How I wish i wasn't the first first-time international employees that report to work.

I heard since this is a pre-operating period, we are all assigned to various areas to help out and try to get the resort running in 2 weeks or less. It is going to be hard work.

With all these mess and the fact that I can't call my parents despite having bought a calling card cause I can't locate the phone at the other block of the dorm and it's dark with no street lights (my torchlight wasn't bright enough to bring me far), I am feeling very overwhelmed.

Oh, And my room wasn't in top notch condition but I think it is quite good. I just need to do some slight cleaning up tomorrow. Mike (the HR manager I dealt with prior to arriving at the States) said that the all the other international students will have it much easier when they arrive as everything will be up and running by then. How I wish I was one of them now.

I am still very worried about my working visa and I seriously hope it will not cause me any trouble or I will end up having to come back to Malaysia.

I don't know, it didn't start off good but I guess everything will be fine soon. I just don't know who to confide in at the moment. I think I'll pray. I think I have not prayed enough.

To Mummy, Daddy and Sissy

Forget to thanks my parents who was so worried they call me at every single transit and my little sis that insisted I bring a few pieces of facial mask there cause I never had the time to use it when I am in Malaysia. I tried...it's good love...
Love you all... Muackz

Hie from Utah, Arizona

Finally reach ad...yay....wow....its so energy draining.
Partly cause I wasnt sleeping most of the time...so tired....hehe

Hie From Singapore

Hie everyone.
Since I am still at Changi airport with some time to spare, I decided to update my blog.
Wanted to upload some pictures I took of the airport (including the seemingly decent chair I slept for about slightly more than an hour)but unfortunately, I left both my camera cable and charger in the checked-in luggage as mum was worried about my hand-luggage being too heavy...

But it's ok...still can scribble some words.

But it is going to be a short blog since I uninstalled Microsoft, so no 'canggih' words to use...hehe..

Hmm, got a warm farewell from my parents (who came all the way down to KL from Penang), aunt, sis as well as some nice CF-ers (Betsy, Jenn Ming and Issac). So nice of them to send me off. Love all of you guys

Of cause not to forget the heavy inflow of farewell msges I received from my lovely friends especially "zhu ren and the happy garden".

My dear was worried about me he even called to check on me when I'm here at Changi. So sweet :)

My cousin Esther was another sweetheart who dedicated a post in her blog specially for me. So touched la wei....hehe

Alright, I think I shall stop here. Update you guys again soon.

P.S: my best friend, sorry but looks like you need to wait a while more before I can reply to your post. you know which post right?

Empathy

Empathy,

Was does it actually mean?

Being able to put yourself in another person’s shoes?

Genuinely understanding what they are going through?

How could you? Having not experienced the same predicament?

It’s hard I understand.

It’s hard.

Empathy,

A feeling shared by two same fated souls

A bond to comfort

A soothing fact that I am not alone

Empathy,

A friend I seek to make

Always Here

Hmmmm,

Had an exhausting but satisfying day.

Unfortunately, this experience does not apply to everyone.

How I wish I could be there for you. Well, guess you will have to endure this alone for the time being.

Be strong ya. I am always here. Was, is and will be here.

Thank You

Thank You
Thank You
Thank You

Thank you God for loving me more than anyone could ever possibly have

Thank you mum and dad for bringing me into this world and nurtured me into a charming young lady (hehe…) with your unconditional love and care.

Thank you all my friends who have always been there for me; through thick and thin no matter how insignificant you thought you are to me (both existing and those I have lost contact with).

Thank you dear for staying by my side; loving me and accepting me as who I am (even at times when I was terribly unreasonable).

Thank you everyone who has ever came into my life and left a permanent footprint in my heart.

Thank you Grace (myself) for being you.

Thank you people for reading my blog.

Love you all loads….

Hugs and Kisses…